Doing it

I often say I'll try when asked to do something or to do it differently. Especially when asked to improve something or to quit doing something.

I've been told don't try, just do it.

From my point of view, while I can see the validity of their point, I have to allow myself that wiggle room. At least I feel I have to allow it. If I was climbing a cliff at the halfway point I would agree with their advice but in my life especially with my bad habits on the line ... failing is a viable option to me.

A new year is coming soon, will it bring renewal and inspiration to do it or just to try once more?

My Watch

Strange figures gather in the mist,
Wisps of secrets, the scents of love
Faint breezes of the ones we’ve kissed

For war a hawk, for peace a dove
Symbols, memories need a tie
A voice to make them real enough

While I stand my watch mute and die

Standing Watch

When you look and really see what is happening around you, how can you not get involved? Where does someone's freedom to make their own choices end and your responsibility to a fellow creature end?
We admire those who go far away and try to make a difference in the world but deride and ridicule those who try to change the world around here ...

"Why is he wasting his time? They'll never change."

How many of us are standing silent watch? Sentinels ready to defend their post, ready to sound the horn when war is forced upon their homes. dumbly watching the destruction and devastation on the other side of the line.

"Can't get involved, I can't afford the time off work or the risk of a criminal record. Can't put my family, my home at risk."

Valhalla is filled with those who died fighting, risking all. Hel's gates hold in those who played it safe, died in their sleep old or ill.

The decision is not good or ill but do or don't, yet I mutely watch assuming that my turn will come and standing watch will bring to me that which I must battle when the time is right.

Time Lapse

Awake for most of the last 48 hrs but no posts ...
Ironic yet very much me.


Polished up Bifrost (SmoothWall Express 2.0) should keep most Ice Giants at bay awhile longer. Added a Wi/Fi link then lost myself in Age of Mythology during my sleep cycles and re-organized the play area. My little viking has all his stuff in colour coded and image labeled bins. Poor kid but he likes being able to surf from his play area.
At 4 surfing always involved water for me and here he is doing things his elders are nervous about. My dad is nowhere near as comfortable doing.

I seem to prefer the Major Dieties in AOM, I do well as Zeus or Odin, though my next best are Thor and Loki. Isis is my favouirite Egyptian. I build too much I think, I try to get too much power base - on easy level I win hands down, I am unstoppable when I finally advance but even one level up I often get caught with my pants down so to speak. I can run a great delaying campaign and occaisionally recover but I need to arm faster and strike decisively with smaller forces. I think I micromanage too much * rofl *

Well I'm going to sleep tonight though I watched "The Family Man" and got kind of sentimental - kind of feel like I should go kill off some AI civilization in AOM to restore the balance of testosterone but maybe I can deal with it by sleep instead.

AI - My son has been diagnosed as autism spectrum disorder, which really means that he doesn't react the way that they feel is normal, and there is some delay in behaviour and language. the language delay is minimizing daily and the rest if we teach it directly he seems to learn what he wants to but ... is that just my own stubborness in a small body?

Anyway AI Autism Inteventionist is what they call the young lady who comes out an plays social games with him. Activities planned to teach him social skills. Not tantrumming whe we try to wash or cut his hair, Potty training, not asking for hugs from women / girls that he has just met (btw it seems to be very effective from a cute blond 4 yr old "Hi what's your name?" "I'm ....." "Can I have a hug?" maybe he could do the self help book circuit? I see a big market in colleges and tech schools ...)

Anyway I always grin when someone talks about the AI and I do the mental shift it takes to realize they are talking about a real person.
Night has fallen hard and I must take my leave.

Dragons Live in the West

It is funny how many dragons I know. The whole of my immediate family are born in the year of the dragon. My son, my wife and I, it only made sense that all our initials match too.

The things we do to our children ...

Loki's brood suffered by association as well as by action perhaps too by neglect. Jormungard was not Thor's bitter enemy till Loki used her to fool Thor and humiliate him. Thrown to the bottom of the see Jormungard grew to encircle Midgard.

Hel The 1/2 beatiful 1/2 decayed daughter was shocking even to Odin who offered her dominion over all who died except those who dies as heroes. Death by sickness or old age made you hers forever.

Fenrir was left to the capricious care of the Aesir, who warned by the Norns about all of Loki's children were unsurprisingly unsuccessful at calming and taming his wild ways. He ended up being tricked then tied to Rocks deep in a mountain

A fate not unlike his Father's who ended up chained to rocks deep in a mountain with the added pleasure or a serpent dripping poison on his face saved only by the grace of sigyn who catches the venom in a bowl. Whenever she turns and empties it he writhes in pain from the venom that drips continuously.

On the day they all rise up ASGARD and Bifrost will fall my horn will sound Giants and I will go down together. A new age will begin.

Skraelings

I was drifting asea when I thought of skraelings. Their canvas boats and dugouts challenging the dragon ships as they neared the west.

I found a very good site @ http://www.heritage.nf.ca/aboriginal/beothuk.html in case you are interested.

The sea born and the forest born quite a different man than the city born English and French but who do you see when you look around now?

The beothuk seem much more Fenris' sort - wild in that 'I won't be bullied nor tamed' sort of way, yet something good in there somewhere if you don't push too hard. They lost but he still makes those chains groan in the dark depths of the mountain.

A toast then to those we've mistreated along the way, "we remember you".